Who has been thought this state of confusion, what comes next?

Have you ever walked into a room and felt something off. Just a little bit, perhaps, as thought everything is offset in its Essence. Nothing is physically changed, in fact, everything is how it has always been, and yet, something is wrong. You do not know what is wrong, or why it is wrong, but you know it is wrong. It is as though nothing makes sense, for in truth it doesent, and thought you can name hundreds of examples off the top of you head, none of them quite fit, nothing shows itself to be what you are looking for. You can never put you finger on the burning of the world. It is so much more with I have war and genocide and chaos and corruption. It as though those are base symptoms of an underlying disease. It is surreal, like De'javu without the feeling like you have been hear before. it is subtle, but I believe it to be common experience. However, I have lived in this state every second of every day for the past four years. What is this, and what comes next. I believe this may be a symptom of moving to a state of awareness of the ridiculousness of this entire reality, for I would name it exasperation, but what sate comes After this? How many of you feel this way always, how many of you have already moved hear and than beyond? I understand if the next place is to subtle to describe, I had quite the time finding how to explain event this low level thinking. (I do not beleve I am evolved, but I reocgnise I am evolving, plese do not hold my aparent saying of my moving to a higher consciousness as blind egotism, the I can not and will not ever asend to a higer state).